Tuesday, November 14, 2006


I've been tagged by Lola to list 5 things you may not know about me. Well, that leaves a lot as long as it doesn't have to do with IVF!!!

1) I like to be alone. This has taken a long time. I used to hate being by myself, now I enjoy it. I like walking alone. Just this weekend, we went to my SIL cabin in OR. It was far far away, quiet, peaceful, cold. I took a morning walk and loved it. Didn't want to turn back. Saw deer in the woods, birds flying overhead, calm life opening up around every curve of the dirt road. It was lovely. I often daydream about disappearing alone. Taking the essentials and just poof. Gone. New state, country, no one knows me. Under the Tuscan Sun kinda fantasy.

2) I am a self beautification junkie. I have more then 100 shades of nail polish. More then 100 shades of lipstick. Tons of face creams, mud masks, hair products, clips, eye shadows/make-up, and jewelry. And none of it expensive because I am a bargain shopper. Maybe if I invested in some key things I would use them more instead of buying everything that looks pretty, but no. And did I mention the scented body lotions and bubble baths??

3) I tried to kill myself every year from the time I was in 3rd grade. Always trying to OD on medications. No one knew until 10th grade when I really did it and landed my ass in a treatment center. It was in that center I realized I was going to be a social worker of some kind. I spent more time talking and helping the other patients then I did addressing my own issues. I didn't drink, smoke, do drugs, hadn't even kissed a boy yet. Many counselors actually questioned why I was there in the first place. I addressed my issues later in life and put them in a mental box for safe keeping. I had to learn that life goes on, you just have to find a direction and take it. I still struggle sometimes, but try to keep ahead of myself. All that experience helped with IF. I commented on another blog that there are a lot of decisions and waiting in IF, but IF is right in the middle of lIFe, where you are always faced with hardships.

4) I have 4 Dads, 4 Moms. Bio parents, adopted parents, husband's parents, husband's step-parents. It can be a bit overwhelming since they are all so very different. This Christmas, they will all be in my new home. Well, not really. Hoping to see bio dad but don't speak with bio mom so that won't happen. But both sets of hubby's parents and my adopted parents will be over. My saving grace of this is that I LOVE HOSTING. I'll throw a party for anyone. I handmake invites, bake and decorate cakes, have themes, the works. Controlling things calms me, thus hosting the party keeps my mind occupied and I don't get freaked out over anything. We'll see if that holds out this year with so many people coming over right after we move into the new house.

5) I used to be a synchronized swimmer. I went to Nationals in DC my jr year. Did ok. Nothing serious. Started swimming on a summer team when I was like 4 and never really got out of the water. Swam year round from 5th grade to jr year of high school and then was just done. Few years later became a coach and lifeguard. Now I scuba dive whenever I get the chance. I am more comfortable in the water, any water, then anywhere else in the world. Now if I could just look better in a swimsuit, things would be grand!

WELL. There it is. I'm not sure why I picked the things I did, and will probably be laying in bed later thinking "I should've written this or that", but I guarantee those are things you, the blogoshpere society, did not know about me.

On another note, recently I am getting blocked from getting to people's sites from their comments, stating they have disabled their profiles or something. What is this people? I don't have site names written down on a post-it so I rely on clicking on the comment names to take me to your leaders, I mean sites!!! If you are one of these people, I would love it if you fixed this for me (0:

I now pass the task to the Nixter, BabyBlue, Bea, and Lara.


Anonymous said...

Wow, we have lots in common. I love to be alone, I am a beauty product junkie, I seriously thought about killing myself in high school and then majored in psychology after my years of counselling, I am also adopted, so have lots of parents. I wasn't ever a synchronized swimmer, though. But other than that, I could pretty much steal your 5 things as mine.

serenity said...

Try my profile now???

And let me know if it doesn't work?

My website is www.big2journey.blogspot.com, btw. :)

CA Momma said...

AAAh! Just the essentials and "poof" be gone!! That was my dream for soooo long!

Carol said...

Being alone is wonderful! Knowing that you like to be a lone is a great thing to know about yourself.

lola said...

Hooray for tags :)
I also love to be alone and prefer to go shopping alone, etc. BUT the one thing I can't do alone is eat in a restaurant. Weird, no?
And I'm also a beauty product junkie. JMA teases me that I could support a small country on the money I spend just on beauty products.

I think that it's wonderful that the hardships you endured when you were growing up helped to make you realize that you wanted to work helping others. It takes a lot of willpower to get through times like that and you are clearly stronger for it.

I also think its fantastic that you are having all of your families get togehter for the holidays!

wzgirl said...

I like to be alone as well. Hard when DH never leaves the house. Maybe i could come over and borrow your nail polish - then we could hang in opposite rooms...naahhh, that'd never work b/c we'd just want to chat and chat. Ah well...otherwise, I can truly relate. And, I envy your polish collection.

Beagle said...

Thanks for sharing more about yourself!

Good Luck with the big hostessign project. It's a lot of work, but I too, find that the sense of control aspect is good for me!

NikkiNix said...

Q1) How often do you change your polish?
Q2) Have you tried Microdermabrasion?

ANswer on my blog kay ;)

Baby Blues said...

Thanks for the TAG! I just love getting preoccupied and posting non-ART related subjects.

I enjoy time alone too. Have you tried listening to Jamie Cullum's "All At Sea". If my life had a Soundtrack, this would be the theme song. Here's the lyrics:

I'm all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
Forgot my roots
If only for a day
Just me and my thoughts sailing far away
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to
All at sea
I'm all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
I sleep by myself
I drink on my own
Don't speak to nobody
I gave away my phone
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to
All at sea
Now I need you more than ever, I need you more than ever, now
You don't need it every day
But sometimes don't you just crave
To disappear within your mind
You never know what you might find
So come and spend some time with me
We will spend it all at sea
Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to
All at sea

Love this song! And I also love the sea.
Thanks for sharing!